yvonne 12.1.11

sometimes it feels as if I'm watching the entire world collapse around me. sometimes it feels as if I'm shoeless. in a snowstorm. sometimes it feels as if all the rain that's ever fallen stays behind my eyes. sometimes it feels as if words like "emergency," and "crisis," and "terror" have no meaning. sometimes I can't remember your face, your voice, the shape of your hands. sometimes I wake to your shape. sitting. at the end of my bed. sometimes I shake and shake my head. to get your name out of every corner. sometimes it feels as if I'm watching the entire world collapse around me.